anonymusings….

if i were to try to use a metaphor to describe my life, i think that i’d compare it to an ocean’s waves. sometimes completely still, beautiful and peaceful…sometimes turbulent and dangerous….

i’m in my tranquil stage again. usually during this time, things seem to pop into my head or be brought into my consciousness out of the blue. like today, for instance. i’ve been slacking on my community service and i’ve been contemplating stepping out on faith and exploring a career change within the next 5 years. on the career front, i’ve always chosen stability (job security, insurance and health benefits) over following my instincts. i still love education, but not the confinement of a public school setting. so what happens? an idea about combining my desire to branch out in education while meeting my desire to find new ways to serve the community came to me while i was sitting in a meeting this morning. one quick e-mail (ba-da-bing ba-da boom) and i’m on my way!

at any rate, during this tranquil time i’ve been trying to figure out what to do with myself since i hate to be stagnant for an extended period of time. i’ve put a financial plan in place to try to meet some of those goals, got back into my fitness habit and began cooking again. the only thing left is the spiritual growth and community outreach.

i’ll begin the spiritual part next week. it seems appropriate that it coincides with my church’s winter conference, but i figured what better way to rededicate myself to my spiritual needs than to jam to my favorite gospel singers, mary mary? ironically, my favorite song from them is “shackles”.

when i first became “loosed”, i talked about how i would dance all over the house to that song every morning. it was my “theme music”. i didn’t realize it, but all the while i was “loosing” myself, i was binding myself in other areas.

now i’m just trying to find a balance. hopefully, instead of this time focusing on one area of development and arresting all of the others, i can find a happy medium in which i’m growing all directions.